The Time I Forgot Who I Was

One of the things I love about my job is that I get to spend time with people who understand the power and value of life transformation.  So much of my time is focused on encouraging transformation, it’s easy to forget that many people don’t have much experience with significant life change.
Fortunately, most people have a pretty accurate picture of who they are and have never felt the need to drastically change their life.  But for some of us, life transformation is vital to the ability to move forward in life.  There are many men and women in our world who reach a point when we look in the mirror and don’t really know who we’re looking at. If you’ve never faced a future absent of hope and choice, you can’t know how impossible real life change can seem.
A few years ago I reached a point when I didn’t know how to do life anymore because I didn’t know who I was.  I had done everything in my power that I could do to fix my problems and it wasn’t enough.  The country was in a deep recession, my business was suffering badly and our family was facing overwhelming financial losses.  I had been led to believe that I should be able to deal with all of life’s troubles on my own power and overcome any obstacle that was placed in my path, this was impossible.   After years of falling short of who the world wanted me to be, I ran out of hope and options.  Every future I could imagine scared me to death. I had lost track of who I was and I looked for something to ease the fear. The answer I turned to was alcohol.
For a long time, alcohol allowed me to hide away from my fears and responsibilities.  Of course, alcohol was a false solution to my problems and addiction charged a heavy price in terms of physical health, damaged relationships and feelings of worthlessness. Eventually alcohol stopped working for me and my world came crashing down.  This time I was hopeless and out of options but now I was without an answers. I needed a new answer for how to do life.
Eventually, God led me to a recovery ministry where I found a group of people who would help me explore my past and my idea of who I really was in God’s eyes.  The hard work of self-exploration taught me that the assumptions I had about my identity were based on false information.
The misunderstanding of self-identity is a common theme for people whose lives have gone in a wrong direction.  Through our work, Lifeblood classes gives participants the support and safety to explore the false information they’ve received (or assumed) about their identity.  Classes also give people opportunities to adjust their understanding of essential life themes having to do with family, relationships, decision-making, the future, and more.
The men and women who sit down together for a Lifeblood class make a commitment to the hard work of finding a new way to do life.  We present the opportunity for participants to move off in a new direction for life as Christ followers and we love to see them recognize the plan that God had for their lives all along.
The result of my own transformation is someone who I never imagined I could be, and that’s why we do what we do at Five Stone Media, to help people see who they are and find an identity and a future they never imagined possible.
There are a number of ways you could support  or take part in our work. We’d love to have you join us in helping people see a different future.
After a business career launching and growing retail, service, and training organizations, Lee fought through and won a battle with addiction.  He now uses his business experience and passion for recovery and transformation to serve the not-for-profit world.  Lee represents Five Stone Media as Lifeblood Project Manager.  You can find Lee on LinkedIn at